Santa Baby.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, EVERYONE!!!!!




Hope ya'll have a great one!

Mine sucks. As always.
Not to mention the gloomy n chilly weather in Melbourne.
Christmas mass in the morning which I hate.
Christmas is probably the only time in the year I step into the holy place. Other times I can't be bothered.
Well, my parents are here. That's another reason that makes me go to church.

Thank you for those who send me xmas cards. They're beautiful!

I really want a pair of rain boots. Preferably in baby blue with dots!!!
Sadly I could hardly find it in Australia :(
I'll probably get em off ebay.

I'm reading Dance Dance Dance by Haruki Murakami.
Quite a stoner book. very slow-paced, repetitive but imaginative. In fact, sometimes I cant tell the difference whether the narrator is seeing something real or just out of his fantasy.
Similar to how my life has been lately.

Slow and repetitive.
Just like the stoner riff.

I can't wait for my life to be recharged like it used to be. Living fast. Never dies. Till I have no more time wasted for sleep.

Fuck.

I need the one and only subtitute to all the chemicals that work to keep my head straight.

Tomorrow is the graduation day.
First time ever in my life I could actually graduate without any hassle.
I graduated from my Primary school with really borderline results. I had to go to the worst secondary school in town.
I didn't graduate from Secondary School at all. Manage to crawl till sec 3(equivalent to year 10), and on the third month of sec 4 I was told that i would not graduate because I failed too many subjects.
Lucky me the university thinks my portfolio rocks.
I hate school. Forever. Never wanna step inside that giant place of crap anymore.
My teachers hated me. They said I was one of the worst student.
But look at me now, bitches.... the worst student is GRADUATING.

Me. Unmasked.


Take a break from judging others. Then take a break from judging that others are judging you.
Conservativity makes me sick. Fuck narrow mindedness of Asian cultures!
Fuck your greed of money, status and conformation!
Fuck your hypocritical selfish judgemental minds!

I live only once. I don't regret a single thing that I've done.

Today.

Decided to spend the day bymyself. Lately I'm starting to enjoy being alone like I used to.
Maybe it's because of alloftv.net.
Maybe it's because of my new found interest in heavy internet surfing.
I love stuff they sell on the internet. I fell in love with these...


[Sushi pillow]


Today consist of making sushi and cupcakes.

Watching Friends season 1 all over again.
Cleaning my fish aquarium water.

I think my bunny is going through emotional changes. She wreck the newspaper at the base of her hutch into pieces at night. In the afternoon she destroy my sofa.
I'm going to get her desexed anytime soon. Or buy her a new friend. Hope that will make her feel better.

11.36am.

Don't stare at what you don't like

Just look away, sometimes what you see isn't suppose to fulfill the perfection in your eyes.
I need to do things that are out of my way, out of your way, and out of THE way.
I want to float in the air watching myself trying to cut open the stomach of an elephant.

I'm a fool, but so what.....
Mind your own fucking business.

Unfamiliarity.

[source: gettyimages.com]


Went to the night market today and ate cupcake that look THAT good. Yum. I'm searching for cupcake recipes right now, I'm going to make one myself. Has any1 ever make cupcakes?

My parents are coming this coming Monday to see me graduate. They get all excited about my graduation.
I don't.
I don't know whats wrong with me. Yesterday night I read the Graduation ceremony schedule and I kept on thinking how bored I'm gonna be. Students from All Courses in my university are going to graduate on the same day, time n place. Which means there are like.... 19237467647836497863 students altogether? ARRGH!!!


MyNation

My Disorder?

What mental disorder do you have? Your Result: OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)   You have odd obsessions that you cannot seem to control. You may even perform rituals to make you feel better. Counting and continuously obsessing over things happens frequently.
Manic Depressive
GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder)
Paranoia
ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder)
What mental disorder do you have?

Planning to go to Canberra after the new year. Starry's sister giving birth to her first child :). Then we're going to Sydney!!! Finally a vacation. Then I'm going back to Indonesia, then I'm planning to stay in Malaysia for a few days to see my friend. I miss her sofuckingmuch!
I'm getting sick of this city.
So sick, cos I could remember the ways to places with my eyes closed, or when I'm asleep. I'm not the 'one thing forever' kind of person. I need changes. I need to move around.
uhm, this doesn't apply to BOYFRIENDS, mind you
I need my hair to change colours, my bedroom be to re-decorated every year, my style to change from time to time. my identity to be shaken and stirred and reformed.
I'm not attracted to things when they get too familiar. I'm not forever.

From now on I'm gonna have Band of the Month thing. Every month I'm going to promote one (or maybe more sometimes) band that 'makes my month'.
This month, it's....


JUCIFER

www.jucifer.com
www.myspace.com/jucifer

Sounds grunge, a bit doom with sweet, sexy vocals but full distorted heavy guitar riffs.